Where is silence? Where is serenity? Where is Love? Ultimately, these cannot be found anywhere except in the ground of our own being. There, in the silent depths, there is no more distinction between the I and the Not-I. There is perfect peace, because we are grounded in infinite creative and redemptive Love. There we encounter God whom no eye can see…Thomas Merton. Love and Living.
I’m going through another stage of Empty Nest Syndrome. I guess that is to be expected. My son died about a month ago and I miss him terribly. Much more than when he went off to college 10 years ago.
Our 30-something daughter is living her own life, dealing with her loss in her own way. We see her often, but it’s not enough to satisfy my craving for WHAT WAS.
My husband is a gentle constant reminder that I am loved and adored. Yet, I still yearn for something more.
As a Mom, I used to satisfy this craving for love and serenity as I slathered my kids with my do-ings. But no more. Looking outside of ourselves will not bring us serenity, only yearning.
Serenity, love, acceptance and peace are housed within us. Our soul – our very essence is love, is peace, is serenity. Is God. I must now look within to find the answers I seek.
I meditate, I take long walks, I nurture myself. I have replaced the inner critic with the loving voice of acceptance.
I am finding peace. I am finding serenity. I am finding the God Within.