I started my business life as an accountant. I loved the idea of balancing equations, order in the midst of chaos.
One and One Equals Two. If you take from one side, you must also take from the other, balancing the equation.
Order, neatness, the “right” answer. I thrived in this world of knowingness and certainty. I knew that if 1 +1 = 2, then I could predict how my life would go. I would marry, have children, live in a nice house with two kids, a great husband, a dog and a station wagon. That was my story, and that’s what I did. By the age of 28, I was set.But then, (you knew there’d be a but, didn’t you?) my world was rocked.
A good friend of mine, a 28-year-old woman full of love and grace developed cancer. This sent me into a tailspin. I asked the question, “Why do bad things happen to such wonderful people?” Sara had done all the right things, and yet here she was, a young wife and mother, terribly sick with cancer.
For me, I began to question my basic assumption of first I do this, and then I do that, and of course good will come. I began to read; spiritual books, religious texts, philosophy, eastern/western medicine. I was a sponge, soaking up information in a desperate quest to find the answer.
One and one equals two.
What was the purpose behind living if a random occurrence (and it was random, right?) could strike at any moment. Of course, there is not a perfect answer. The equation of life does not always balance. And yet, I knew there had to be more.
A few years passed, and I returned to school and took my Masters in Organizational Leadership. The premise of this program was that business organizations are conscious entities, possessing many of the same properties as living organisms. We studied change and chaos theories, applying quantum mechanical concepts to business.
The morphemic fields of entanglement we studied sounded much like the Chinese system of chi, or life force energy that permeates the body. From my readings, I knew that numerous cultures describe a matrix of subtle energies that surround and intertwine the physical body. This universal life energy is called chi (or qi) in China, Prana in India, and ki in Japan.
I wondered whether my business readings and my philosophical readings could be referring to the same thing.
I wondered if humans were connected to one another through a web of energies that intertwine the planet, allowing us to communicate telepathically.
Over the next decade or two I continued to pursue my reading and found my way into a program of psychic study. Some of the tools that I teach, such as the grounding cord, the golden sun, and blowing roses come from this program of study.
At heart, I am still a numbers person, a person who wants to solve the equation of life. I am analytical and very down to earth.
One and one equals two, or does it?
I ran across the following quote not too long ago, and I think it’s an accurate portrayal of where I am now in my pursuit of order, neatness and the “right” answer.
Here it is:
“You think you know two because you know one,
and one and one equals two.
But you fail to know ‘and.’”
~ Sufi teacher as quoted by Donella Meadows in Beyond the Limits
If you’re ready to take the next step to discovering the “ands” of life, I’d love to be your guide.
I teach through my books and blog posts, so I invite you start here with
Words That Heal (the blog)
And of course, I’d love to share my two books with you. Both are available on Amazon and in your local bookstore. My first book, Tame Your Inner Critic Find Peace & Contentment to Live Your Life on Purpose explores how to use your intuition to quiet the mind chatter and live your life on purpose. There’s a workbook too! SEE MORE HERE.
And my second book, Walking in Grace with Grief Meditations for Healing After Loss combines my story of loss with teachings of energy awareness, mindfulness and conscious living. SEE MORE HERE.
I am glad you are here and I would love to share my journey with you. Please send me an email or Facebook me – I would love to connect!